Reflections on 2009

Happy New Year! 2010 has begun and as probably are a lot of people I’m excited. In previous years for me new years would bring hope because I wanted something better than what I've been experiencing. As if all the previous years in the past hadn't lived up to expectations. I would ask myself ‘Would this be the year that things would get better? Would I finally get a good job? Would I finally meet that special someone?’ It was kind of a doubtful hope, perhaps even a desperate hope. But this year doubt has been replaced by something else.

I'm excited not so much because I want to forget all the past years’ disappointments and move on to the next one but in a sense it's BECAUSE of the past that I'm excited. God did a lot in my life in 2009. And I have FAITH that God will continue to keep working through 2010 and beyond. Last year was a reminder of God's Faithfulness. That I was even questioning God’s plan was just crazy.

In January of 2009 God called me to go to Hillsong College. God certainly was there directing me. Not that God hadn’t been directing the whole time before, but this time I started to actually SEE how He was doing it, and thus have a chance to experience God during all these times of blessing. How terrible would it be if I just said that me being accepted into Hillsong College wasn’t God? Or that it wasn’t God that provided me with funds to live in Australia. Or that God wasn’t transforming me during my 1st semester at Hillsong College? What if I didn’t attribute those things to God? It’s interesting because when I attributed those things to God, that in itself gave me more faith to ask God for more. Not so much asking in a way that I come to Him with a list of things that I want, which would lead to greed and selfishness. But that I realize that these things that God provides is for HIS GLORY. So I DO attribute these things to God and I find myself seeing more of God in my life.

It is a great feeling to have complete trust in Him. Even during some difficult times I know I can have confidence that “in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28). What a great assurance!

So yea I look forward to what God has in store for 2010!